Spaz

2009-05-05T21:25:00.000-05:00

I no longer live in Auburn.

2009-04-30T12:23:00.001-05:00

Phase 4
- HIV/AIDS
- COPD
- Allergic Rhinitis
- DM type 1 (& preferred contraception)
- Pain
- Constipation
- Schizophrenia
- Alzheimer's
- BPH
- Cellulitis/Ostemyelitis

Wow, I have a lot left to study.

2009-04-28T23:35:00.000-05:00

I wish I was super interesting and creative. I wish I could write thought-provoking blogs that bring people to tears.. either thru sadness or laughter.

But I'm not.

2009-04-17T16:42:00.000-05:00

Apparently, I rock.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	8.3
Mind:	7.5
Body:	7.7
Spirit:	7.2
Friends/Family:	7.4
Love:	7.3
Finance:	6.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

2009-04-08T16:06:00.001-05:00

My prediction: Kutner was Schizophrenic.

2009-02-05T14:23:00.001-06:00

Coughing sucks.

Reminder for self...

2008-10-20T22:32:00.000-05:00

To do:

Kinetics (buy calculator & notebook!)

Rework Case 1-7

DIP:

Mirtazapine Journal Club

PPE:

Reflection ED
Reflection MH
SOAP MH
Get medlist for Hospice pt

Study:

Hypothyroid
Dyslipidemia
Migraine
DM type 2
CKD
anemia associated w/CKD
bone mineral density problems w/CKD

Clean house (ha! fanciful daydream that >_<)

Tues:
Pledge books/Pledge meeting

2008-06-10T06:51:00.000-05:00

Well, I have been married for a week now. (Technically, at 3pm I will have been married for a week. But who's counting?)

Vegas was pretty amazing. And Mike admitted to me he wasn't so sure about the whole idea until after it was done. He said, (and I quote:) "You did pretty good." Yeah :) However, I can't take all the credit as most of the trip was planned by our wonderful travel agent, Ms Diane. (Note to self: Email Diane pictures)

As we were driving back from the airport, Mike and I were discussing how this was a trip of firsts:
My first trip to Vegas.
My first time getting married.
My first... well, wedding night, if you know what I mean ;D
My first time to gamble... and lose
My first time to get drunk. (Don't worry we were already back in the room for the evening!)

There were others that I just don't recall this morning. All-in-all, it was a once in a lifetime trip.

And now that we're back in Sheffield... the work begins. Mike didn't think to clean his apartment before he left. Let's just say, he doesn't keep house like I do (Understatement!). To give him some credit, it's not that bad. He just hadn't got around to buying any decent storage/furniture. When you have no dresser to put the clothes in they tend to lay around on the floor.

Sunday I devoted to only laundry. I figured I was tired from traveling and that was about all I could handle. It's amazing the difference doing only laundry will make. 6 loads later, and I can see his floor. There was some other straightening here and there, but I tried to keep it at a minimum for both of our sakes. Yesterday evening, his grandmother helped us to get an armoire (sp?) which was a pretty big help. One side now holds towels and bed linens, the other holds jeans and in the bottom drawer are t-shirts. Still no good place for his work clothes (or my clothes.. eep!) but it's a start. Now we need a Bookcase, two bedside tables, another dresser wouldn't hurt, and either a larger DVD rack or another one because all his DVDs don't fit in the one he has.

On a sad note, i shattered one of our souvenir champagne glasses. Doh! It was totally my fault. After washing dishes I propped it on top of all the glasses that were drying, and then I jumped or something on the kitchen floor which vibrated it off into the sink and it shattered. I'm hoping I can find another on Ebay or something because I would really like to replace it.

Ok, enough typing. I need to get ready for work!

2008-05-07T08:30:00.001-05:00

last final for the semester in T - 30 and counting.

after this I'm going home, and going to bed, and sleeping until I just wake up.

2008-04-09T23:04:00.001-05:00

mmm... oatmeal

2008-03-29T22:36:00.001-05:00

I'm sitting on the couch with my Laptop.

Mike is sitting on the chaise with his.

Is this what our married life will be like?

.... I can't wait. :D

2008-03-12T01:02:00.000-05:00

Drumroll plz.

And the winners are:

1- Open Arms
2- You Are So Beautiful
3 - Can't Help Falling In Love With You
4 - Viva Las Vegas

Not one, but 2 Elvis songs!

I'll be glad for Thursday. O_o

2008-02-29T21:48:00.000-06:00

I have received the Vegas information packet. We have a piano player for the ceremony, because it's just included. There's a list of songs we can choose from... but there are so many, and I don't really know what I want for sure. Granted, there are very few people who still check back and look at this thing, but those that do.. (Ahem Chris :D) I'd like feedback.

I have included the youtube link to a version of the song. But keep in mind it will be on piano. No trumpet/harps/organs/accordians/fans screaming. Well, there may be fans screaming cause we're so cool. And I'm delusional...

So, four songs:
1 - Groom and bridal party entree
2 - My entree
3- background during service
4- Our Exit.

Songs:
Ave Maria - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=aQVz6vuNq7s

Bridal March Processional - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=DnreANnpWl0 ((Similar to the trumpet voluntare... Just a different opening as far as I can tell.))

Bridal March Recessional - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=oBmPBUIFpdI

Canon in D - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=6wpPk8qk3uQ

Jesu Joy of Man's Desire - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=hRnwuqGMsmo

Rondeau by Moret - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=dVUJjPzRb2U ((Bonus points if you can tell what it's from :D))

Trumpet Voluntare - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=eWnWgQmODbs

Erev Shel Shoshanim - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=8oR2nAsCiKU

Siman Tov (Mazal Tov!) - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=bDKiXCeuWuw

Jerusalme of Gold - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=UlIJOAZ1pak (All i could find was this woman singing.. ah well)

Handel's Hallelujah Chorus - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=nnHksDFHTQI

A time for Us - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=EJOVxPgGnZo

Can You Feel the Love Tonight - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=PkGDrV_2ehI (Must I really put a link?)

Moon River - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=_aU02NIFdQM

Somewhere in Time - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=a0w3jMvZBy0

Through the Eyes of Love - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=Jrto4qrK8zc

Viva Las Vegas - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=SUiojxJxBj0

At Last - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=LZXvLsltu2A

It Had to be You - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=MWBTS-9Ajf0

L-O-V-E - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=JErVP6xLZwg

Our Love is Here to Stay - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=e7T80eFndWs

The Look of Love - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=1wbGYHwIt0A

My Romance - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=gT8e3XTSFOs

Someone to Watch Over Me - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=M9bT6mvoFVI

Something (... in the way she moves) - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=CqDV77r8244

Unforgettable - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=53ith7bNN8w

The Way you Look Tonight - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=8RTi3TVoqkY

What a WOnderful World - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=vnRqYMTpXHc

When I fall in Love - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=0-b7dLq11jI

Get Here - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=JBSodK6WO_k

From This Moment - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=y8qj2MzIlJw

Here and Now - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=A31u-dIMT-4

Here, There, and Everywhere - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=q1ufDdiK9xY

The Hawaiian Wedding Song - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=tJJFldeu9vM

I Swear - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=SnYESenjoGY

Open Arms - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=kTMzPpwc36M

We're in this Love Together - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=NwGIOLfGP6c

You are so Beautiful - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=wlDmslyGmGI

For Once in My Life - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=LMStRERJNsM

Everything I do - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=oOkxI2YtZXw

Truly, Madly, Deeply - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=H6Dg1Ymji-Q

The Prayer - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=WK9nt1NF7Nw

I Can't Help Falling in Love - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=fq-ZMVkJDJ0

Endless Love - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=KJ1HI0meefk

Lady - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=bC1KpI0TNE8

Love Me Tender - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=HZBUb0ElnNY

My Love - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=v_RRWfVvRgc

Unchained Melody - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=t-idDbIfGvw

The Wedding Song - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=T4_x24cVHr8

We've Only Just Begun - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=cU_9-uuKz0I

Wind Beneath My Wings - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=9d9l8K7xOYM

You're Still the One - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=6XENujsU3Wg

Ribbon in the Sky - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1YpULTAzrI

Amazed - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=XU0v2_PcPbk

Broken Road - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=b6zrE2149v8

COme Away with Me - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=aBKcKQHZXks

Sunrise, Sunset - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=nLLEBAQLZ3Q

There's some gems on that list.. and then there's some that make you question humanity's sanity. (heh that rhymed) So, leave your top 10, or top 5, or nothing at all. Thanks guys! <3

2008-02-26T03:24:00.001-06:00

Can not sleep :(
Been in bed since 12:30am
It is now 3:30am

I totally have a bugs and drugs test tomorrow night too. :(

2008-02-04T23:45:00.000-06:00

i haven't forgotten you, but i have neglected you.

...another nights neglect won't bother you.

2007-12-16T07:43:00.001-06:00

i'm goimg home!

2007-12-09T23:30:00.001-06:00

When God Made Cats

When God made the world, He chose to put animals in it, and decided to give each whatever it wanted. All the animals formed a long line before His throne, and the cat quietly went to the end of the line. To the elephant and the bear He gave strength, to the rabbit and the deer, swiftness; to the owl, the ability to see at night, to the birds and the butterflies, great beauty; to the fox, cunning; to the monkey, intelligence; to the dog, loyalty; to the lion, courage; to the otter, playfulness. And all these were things the animals begged of God. At last he came to the end of the line, and there sat the little cat, waiting patiently. "What will YOU have?" God asked the cat.

The cat shrugged modestly. "Oh, whatever scraps you have left over. I don't mind."

"But I'm God. I have everything left over."

"Then I'll have a little of everything, please."

And God gave a great shout of laughter at the cleverness of this small animal, and gave the cat everything she asked for, adding grace and elegance and, only for her, a gentle purr that would always attract humans and assure her a warm and comfortable home.

But he took away her false modesty.

- Lenore Fleischer

Expecto Protronads! The Elder swear....... soup!

2007-12-08T02:32:00.001-06:00

2007-11-26T23:12:00.001-06:00

2007-11-05T14:18:00.000-06:00

I just got off the phone with Dr. Albert, DVM. He confirmed what I feared he would confirm: Joker is in the beginnings of Chronic Renal Failure.

I have spent the weekend intermittently crying and being hopeful. Joker is 16 years old. It was to be expected. It doesn't help my feeling that I feel I might understand it a bit better than the common pet owner. We've studied this in my classes. There is no treatment. Well, I take that back... but I can't afford dialysis and I also cannot condone paying that much money to put a kitty on dialysis.

Apparently though, I also caught it very early on. A diet change of cat food with less protein can help.

I've had him forever, and it's hard to think that he won't be there. Every time he goes to his water bowl it makes me a little sad.

2007-11-04T17:41:00.000-06:00

Halloween costume for next year:

- Stephanie from lazy town. Ahhh! The pinkness!
- Spy vs. Spy - only if Mikey gets to go too.. Black Spy vs. White Spy anyone?
- Sean and Liz - Again, only as a couple.

hmm.

2007-10-28T01:36:00.000-05:00

Why can I not sit down and study?

A question that plagues me endlessly. I do care about school, but I lack so much motivation. And endocrine is haaard.

Yet, it is interesting... if I just didn't have 150-some odd pages to memorize in four days... :(

2007-10-15T21:33:00.001-05:00

Yay Disney Music classics!

2007-10-14T01:32:00.000-05:00

Ah lolcat bible, how you see me through the day....

Weekends suck. Period.

Funny how you can learn so much material, and still know so little. But such is the nature of medicine... specifically pharmacogenomics. I think part of what makes it worse is that "they" don't know everything. Kinda irks me when I stop to think that most of the material I am learning now will be outdated in a couple of years or so. They still make such a big deal out of it now.

In my opinion, the main thing they should be teaching us is how to do successful research, and to understand what we're reading. Basics in chemistry (and all that metabolism) is good, too. But guidelines are continuously morphing, new drugs are synthesized, and old drugs are discontinued/ or given for completely different disease states. I wish I could know it all, but I never will. With good research skills, I can look up anything I need to know though.

I'm keeping the roomie's dog this weekend, and I have broken out into hives both nights. Guess we know I'm allergic to dogs (which I already knew.) I've been debating about doubling up on the zyrtec. It's supposed to be dosed q24, but it wouldn't hurt me to do q12. I mean after all, I have hives right now. Itchy itchy. Funnily enough, we're studying antihistamines right now. Oh, and pulmonary. Yay pulmonary.

2007-10-10T14:47:00.000-05:00

Hold the pickles, hold the lettuce...

I have arthritis in my right-hand ringer finger joint. It's rather strange. Yesterday it was swollen to about the size of a grape. Visibly larger than my left hand ring finger joint. It was stiff, and had a dull ache. I could not bend it easily.
I do not recall jamming my finger. Not that it isn't likely. I very well could have. I am quite accident prone. My mother said it could be gout, but i went on a kind of tirade about me being female (estrogen promotes uric acid removal,) that the weather isn't cold enough, and it's my finger not my toe!

Of course, I accept that it was still a possibility. But as a general rule, 23 year old females with healthy kidneys don't get gout. :D Anyways, the swelling has gone down, but the finger is weaker and still aching.

I find myself addicted to the graffiti application on facebook. However, my favorite app is still probably the NES games app.

I did not study for my pharmacy management class again. This time, I got an 85. I wonder if this would work for Drugs and Diseases course? Ha!

Notes to self: pay rent, grab ipod.

2007-09-25T00:25:00.001-05:00

For Chris:

lawl

2007-09-23T20:13:00.001-05:00

I am severely annoyed. Hacked off. Pissed. Ticked.
And why you ask?

Because of a new movie they have made based on one of my favorite book series - Susan Cooper's The Dark is Rising.
Why am I angry and not happy that the series I have always felt would make a great movie is being made into said movie? Because I am afraid they have screwed it up royally. Go watch the trailer here

After watching the trailer again, I am almost certain they've screwed it up. That is NOT how Will Stanton is supposed to act. He is a quiet child. He is mature. He's a grown up. He doesn't take his power nor his responsibility lightly.

GRRRRR ANGER. Ok

2007-09-20T21:46:00.000-05:00

My Three Favorite Actresses:
1. Jessica Tandy - I know she's dead, but she had such an undeniable grace!
2. Joan Cusack - Probably because she plays characters I relate to... I dunno, I just like her. :)
3. Jena Malone - She's so dadgum cute. I dunno, I just like her.

My Three Favorite Actors
1. Johnny Depp - He's hot, and an extremely good actor. SRSLY!
2. Hugh Laurie - He's british, he's sexy, and a good actor. Rly!
3. Simon Pegg/Nick Frost - They have to get double billing, because I don't believe that they would be as good starring without the other.

There's a lot of names starting with "J" on that list.

2007-09-17T22:48:00.000-05:00

Note to self:
Go Jimmy Go
Aggrolites
Big D and the Kids Table

2007-09-17T15:31:00.000-05:00

Ever go back and read what you wrote and realize how lame you are? 'Cause I totally just did.

I have got to get remotivated for school. I have quit doing my DAD notes every evening like I used to. And we have a test on Wednesday. Apparently I am in no way prepared for it. I suppose I shall be cramming like... like a student who crams before an exam. That evokes the proper picture.

On a "happier" note, we're making lollipops in lab on Tue. I have also "re"-discovered Bruddah Iz. If you've not heard any of his stuff (and if you've seen the rice krispies commercial or heard the "Somewhere over the Rainbow" at the end of 50 First Dates, then you've heard his stuff!) then I do highly recommend it.

I do hereby vow to do better in school. Ha! But, no seriously. I am unplugging the TV in my room. There, I just did it. Ok.

Uhm, nothing more to say.

2007-09-12T22:06:00.000-05:00

I don't want to be a pharmacy manager.

2007-09-10T22:39:00.000-05:00

I can't concentrate.

... and I even like Immunology. Boo for me.

2007-09-09T21:58:00.000-05:00

Topher Grace is my brother? Or my brother is Topher Grace? Not really, but if you've seen In Good Company...

On a totally unrelated note, my eye is kinda swollen. But the Kashi whole grains cereal stuff is pretty good.

The weekends are totally the worse time to be in Auburn.

Personal notes to self. Pay rent tomorrow. What else was I supposed to do? Oh, prep lab notes and prepare for lab quiz and also management quiz. Dance like a kitty cat, and daydream the possibilities?

Nothing I write makes much sense, but then neither does my brain.

I wish I were prettier, but I should care/try more. But the only time I really try is when I'm am going to see my fiancee.

Eh, I'm just down tonight. Because it's the weekend.

2007-08-21T17:09:00.000-05:00

This article... there are just no words for it. I present to you, woman ripping off a man's testicle with her bare hands.

Wow.

2007-08-19T21:28:00.001-05:00

I'm no longer in Hot-lanta. However, I am eating grapes. And they are some yummy, yummy grapes.

Already the studying has begun. I am only about 2 days into school. Already bored to tears. Well, I take that back. I have enjoyed DAD... I continue to find it all interesting, if only I could remember everything I've learned. I already feel way behind in class though. I just don't remember a whole lot from last year, and they keep bringing up things that I should remember.

However, in less than a year I will be getting married. Whoo hoo! Heather gets married in Dec. Which means I will be sans roomie for 4 or 5 months. Unless I can convince Andrew to come live with me, (which I really do hope he will. I don't necessarily want to live alone!)

I feel like I have nothing else to say. I need to buy bottled water.

The end.

2007-08-14T19:09:00.000-05:00

I'm in hot-lanta. It is hot.

2007-01-29T23:11:00.000-06:00

w00t!
I may have convinced the mother that Vegas wedding is a good idea.. :)

2007-01-10T15:44:00.000-06:00

So, I'm watching one of those crazy wedding shows.. Which I totally have an excuse since I'm all engaged now... :)

Anyways, my observation: This girl had 10 bridesmaids? Oh heck no! ONE. That's it. Denise, better start figuring out now what kinda dress you want chicky!

2006-12-13T12:14:00.000-06:00

DEATH TO CAPP AND OSCE

2006-12-10T22:55:00.000-06:00

"Study as hard as if you don't pray and pray as hard as if you don't study" Espoir

2006-11-27T14:33:00.000-06:00

Scrumtrulescent!

2006-11-07T11:17:00.000-06:00

One of the worlds biggest lies: I don't care what other people think.

2006-10-09T22:52:00.000-05:00

My Personality


Neuroticism	54
Extraversion	87
Openness To Experience	37
Agreeableness	31
Conscientiousness	4

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So this was an interesting quiz/survey/meme/whatever!
And frighteningly accurate...

2006-10-08T23:40:00.000-05:00

HowManyOfMe.com

There are:
200
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

2006-10-04T22:56:00.000-05:00

Whoo! I look like a man! And Stevie Nicks, but really, she looks like a man.

The first time I did it I got Ashley Olsen 80%. But I didnt like the picture so I re-did it.

2006-10-01T19:07:00.000-05:00

Today, I made suppositories.

2006-09-14T11:23:00.000-05:00

What can I say, I'm brilliant.

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

2006-09-07T05:32:00.000-05:00

So I pretty much knew this already but...

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		12
Quality Time:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2006-08-30T16:39:00.000-05:00

Take the quiz:
What Kind of Cute Are You?

Kitten Cute
You are KITTEN CUTE! You are as cute as it gets. You are adorable, snuggly, playful and small. Everyone loves you, and if they don't they're probably mean.

Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

2006-08-28T21:53:00.000-05:00

the Adventurer

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN.

"I am happy and open to new things"

Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute
to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.

Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.

Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.

Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.

Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.

Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a Seven

being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down

being spontaneous and free-spirited

being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.

being generous and trying to make the world a better place

having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures

having such varied interests and abilities

What's Hard About Being a Seven

not having enough time to do all the things I want

not completing things I start

not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing;
not making a commitment to a career

having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies

feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

Sevens as Children Often

are action oriented and adventuresome

drum up excitement

prefer being with other children to being alone

finesse their way around adults

dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

Sevens as Parents

are often enthusiastic and generous

want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life

may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

Harper
SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please don't forget to RATE it...

but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-)

you wanna know MORE?

so check out, what Wikipedia says about your type...

...even more you'll find in Google

or do you prefer to

You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose AX

Would you rather have chosen:

BX (NINE)

CX (TWO)

AY (EIGHT)

AZ (THREE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 65% on ABC
You scored higher than 16% on XYZ

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2006-08-24T17:09:00.000-05:00

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2006-08-21T09:16:00.000-05:00

After watching the Andy Griffith show I have come to the conclusion that my grandfather is Andy Taylor.

2006-08-17T12:59:00.000-05:00

Love by ruby mae
Your name
Your partner
You two are	Meant for eachother
Your meeting was by	Destiny
They are your	Best Friend
You are their	Sweetheart
Your love will	Be unconditional

Quiz created with MemeGen!

2006-08-01T00:38:00.000-05:00

So I just finished KH2.

Square Enix how you tease me!

2006-05-12T20:31:00.000-05:00

2006-04-20T01:13:00.000-05:00

Insomnia... I thought you were gone!
Sigh.

2006-03-03T11:15:00.000-06:00

Update goes here...

Really guys I swear I'm getting to it!

2006-02-15T17:01:00.000-06:00

What do you think of me? In five words...
What else do you think of me? In five more...

2006-02-05T23:54:00.000-06:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%

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Interesting.. my lowest (at 23%) were Mystical, Hedonistic, and Female Cliche. My highest was Religious (well, duh) and Physical Security. After that was Dependency (on others, not drugs!) and Peter-Pan complex.

Thoughts anyone?

2006-01-25T15:54:00.000-06:00

Generate your Anime Character! by ryiu

Name

hair...

short and colorful

clothing...

a long robe tied together with a sash

eyes...

purple

special trait...

cat eyes

special ability...

you move like lightning and you can jump high

weapon...

a rifle

personality...

outgoing

sidekick...

a small demon who can teleport and talk

purpose...

you're wandering to wherever your feet take you

you are good by: 90%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

2005-11-07T17:51:00.000-06:00

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragrah on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) at what people remember about you.

And if you'd rather just email it to me that'd work too. I don't trust some of you guys... ^_^;;

2005-11-01T12:55:00.000-06:00

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

Maybe I'm in the right field after all?

2005-10-16T13:24:00.000-05:00

Wow. Prophetic evangelism anyone?

2005-10-13T14:27:00.000-05:00

Ok, so I said I'd post tomorrow. But it's today, so can I really post?

That reminds me of fourth grade, when I could start rambling about the fact that tomorrow doesn't exist and neither does yesterday and blah blah blah. I could talk for 30 min straight without stopping. Could I still do that now? Some days, yes.

I feel as though there isn't too much to elaborate on right now. Ryle hara... Life is what it is. Liringlas, not evlish, for anyone who was curious.
I still very much so would like to do pharmacy as a career, but in all honest truth, I hate school. I don't believe I've ever hated school so much before. I like learning what I am learning, honest I do. Maybe it's the pressure of classes or what. I don't know.

I never realized how much I compared myself to others until this year though. Or maybe I never did compare myself to others until this year. I don't like to compare myself. I was created as I am for a purpose, for a reason. It should matter very little what others think. And honestly, I'm not worried so much about what others think, as I am concerned with what I think. Does that make sense? No.

I'm ready for the semester to be over, and scared to death of what will happen when it is over. I think I'm coming to grips more with things... until I get my last mammalian test back. We'll see what happens then. It's not that I'm not trying, but that I'm tired of having to.

2005-10-13T00:29:00.000-05:00

Tomorrow blog...
Now, bed.

2005-10-05T22:29:00.000-05:00

Le sigh...

Found a new tv show to be addicted to, Dog The Bounty Hunter. ^_^

2005-10-02T20:25:00.000-05:00

Mental Dump v1.47

I didn't want to come back to Auburn. I'm the opposite of Trillium, being gone made me realize how happy I was to not be here. First summer I was here, it sucked. I knew no one, I tried to know no one. Then fall semester, I found my niche. Great Fall, better Spring, O.K. Summer.. (keep in mind that was Physics summer..) start pharmacy school. I lost my niche. It is gone. It has left me and I can't find it. I have been trying. I no longer see the friends I made. Very randomly and rarely.

Four wheelers are fun. If my dad doesn't end up buying the one he's borrowing, I shall buy him one after I graduate.

Four hours of thinking time in the car, and I'm still bemuddled.

My grandparents are amazingly strong people. A lot of the times I feel as if I don't know them, and when I'm with them.. I don't have to. They're just there for me because.

I wish I could have kept the 98, instead of the 48. I didn't regain any sleep over correcting him, so what good was it really?

I feel like my joy is slipping away, but how can that be? If I'm where I'm supposed to be... I need a break from school... soon, very soon.

Best family vacation I ever had was a cruise when I was 15.

I feel sorry for breakin down on my parents this weekend. But it's hard to be happy perky sometimes when you just aren't. Though most of the time, no one knows the difference.

My cat missed me, and berated me when I came home. Oddly enough, I missed him this weekend too. Home wasn't the same without him.

I'm feel like i'm slipping, with nothing to grip.

...maybe Trill'll be up for IHOP.

2005-09-26T00:11:00.000-05:00

ImThaSpaz took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Needs a peaceful environment. Wants release from s..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

interesting...

2005-09-25T02:09:00.000-05:00

... could he have been right?

Ta-Lee, I think you would've been proud of me tonight.

2005-09-15T17:53:00.000-05:00

I am stressed.. know how I know?

I lost my keys.

2005-09-14T01:00:00.000-05:00

Things I want after watching Advent Children:
The soundtrack
A cell phone ringer with the Final Fantasy "Victory Music"
Vincent
and a moogle plushie.

Ok, so I've wanted the moogle plushie for a few years now...

2005-09-12T23:47:00.000-05:00

It's kinda nice to come home to a kitty cat who berates you for being gone all day...

I could never be a bulemic, I don't do so well with gagging myself. But after I did last night I was able to sleep. Amazing how it wasn't the caffiene keeping me up, just the nausea.

I want to go home. But on second thought... This weekend may be a good weekend to go visit the sibs.. if they're free. No wait, Mammalian test on Monday. Scratch that idea... or maybe not. We'll just be considering it. Though I enjoyed the family reunion, it wasnt really enough. You can't replace home I guess. I have simply been in Auburn too long.

I do however know the first 2 sections of my mammalian notes backwards and forwards. Now if only DAD were the same way!

I am getting tired of dressing up everyday. Is it odd that I feel more comfortable with the P2s than I do with my own classmates? Maybe because just as I am starting to feel discouraged I realize that I will make it. Heh, insert cheesy motivational comment here. I have an 8 o'clock in the morning. Boo for starting the day off with Dr. Berger. He's schmoozy. At least I read the stuff last week.

Such superficial inane drivel. Is there no sustenance to my daily activites?
::thinks for a moment...::
Nope!

I guess I live my life through my relationships with others.. not with my relationship to the computer. You can tell it's midnight because I'm not making sense.

2005-09-11T19:48:00.000-05:00

I do it everytime, why don't I listen to myself?

I studied in cambridge today and I got the coffee of the day. Started out with special dark (nummy!) then half special dark half house roast then all house roast... and now I'm feeling sick as a dog. Everytime I get coffee of the day I do this to myself. Too much caffiene always makes me feel sick. If I could just stop with one glass but I can't. Blargh.

I did however get a good number of notecards finished. Here's hoping they help me in Mammalian. I need some copies of old tests and soon. Puttin in a call to Brian M. I'm also curious as to how Andrew got the linky for my blog. Not that I care, just wonderin how you found it bro. From Mom?
I think im going to go lay down, or puke one. >_<

2005-09-08T15:28:00.000-05:00

Random observation for today:
I don't like Chicken Alfredo Pizza.

I'm off to play wind waker!

2005-09-07T16:58:00.000-05:00

I've been berated for not updating.. ::cough cough::Trillium::cough cough::

What to say...?

I've been making daily/hourly schedules for myself and trying to stick to them. They've worked so far..
Except I just took a quiz for drugs and diseases and made a 5 outta 10.. Gulp. I dunno, I understand it while studying it.. but get to the test and I go... Uhm what? That and I've been focusing more on Mammalian then DAD.

I sat at the table in foy today with Trillium. I had fun. Wish I could sit there more regularly, but I'm too busy. A couple of pharm people saw me in there and told me that I was fraternizing with non-pharm and that was not acceptable. They were joking, and I knew it.. but it made me think. The pharmacy people do tend to seperate themselves from the rest of the people. Is it our dress clothes or something else? Do i belong in pharmacy? Lol, obviously or I wouldn't have gotten in. Ah well, I guess I go to study now. Obviously I need to work harder.

2005-08-27T17:01:00.000-05:00

The clinic was closed.

And I still feel awful.

2005-08-27T13:21:00.000-05:00

So, in case you haven't already heard me whine, my vertigo is acting up. So, just so you know what it is I cut a small blurb about vertigo to show you what it is.

The term vertigo refers to the sensation of spinning or whirling that occurs as a result of a disturbance in balance (equilibrium). It also may be used to describe feelings of dizziness, lightheadedness, faintness, and unsteadiness. The sensation of movement is called subjective vertigo and the perception of movement in surrounding objects is called objective vertigo.

Vertigo usually occurs as a result of a disorder in the vestibular system (i.e., structures of the inner ear, the vestibular nerve, brainstem, and cerebellum). The vestibular system is responsible for integrating sensory stimuli and movement and for keeping objects in visual focus as the body moves.

Symptoms:

Fatigue and reduced stamina
Headache
Heart palpitations (rapid fluttering of the heart)
Imbalance
Inability to concentrate
Increased risk for motion sickness
Muscle ache (especially of the neck and back)
Nausea and vomiting
Reduced cognitive function (i.e., thinking and memory)
Sensitivity to bright lights and noise
Sweating
Blurred Vision

All the above was ganked from www.neurologychannel.com.

... I was gonna write (and whine,) a whole lot more, but I decided that I'm just going to go ahead and go to the clinic. Later.

2005-08-23T22:48:00.000-05:00

Random observations:
The pipe organ at Wesley has a rear-view mirror.
Cat purring is very theraputic.
Sometimes, I just don't belong.
My friends I graduated with are still geeks.
Rolling up a ball of stuff can be theraputic.
I don't like raisins.

2005-08-20T18:15:00.000-05:00

Apparently I gleaned more Organic Chemistry than I realized. Since the first 2-3 weeks of Drugs and Diseases is a review of Organic Chemistry I'm getting to review that which I thought I'd never have to see again.

I went swing dancin last night, and wowsers. I did have fun. Trill said I looked natural out there. I got tha flow. And others told me I did well. Meh. That's somewhat hard for me to believe.

Today was good. I spent lunch with Jon Mark. Nice, unstressful, normalacy. He even got me into Wal-mart which I have been avoiding. I do better in Wal-mart when I have someone to meander with. Then Trillby called and I've been studying at Cambridge with her since about 3ish. Hence my excitement over actually remembering this crap. With about 4 highlighters, 3 pens, 2 people, 1 big notebook. Ha! Ok sorry, just felt like counting down. I've made it thru about 4 chapters now and I'll probably be here another 45 min then home for some type of supper (leftover calzone ^_^) and katamari and sleep. Where to go to church in the morning? I havent even thought about that.. I am going to Wesley with Trill tomorrow night. Maybe I'll tag along with Heather and Jacob. We'll just have to see...

2005-08-19T12:25:00.000-05:00

I've been spammed. It's interesting that they think such things will actually work.

Ah, what to say. It's been an interesting week. I am already tired of dressing professionally. But I do love my sched. It's nice to know I'll be thru with classes by 12 every day (except Wed.) and also that I don't have to be on campus until 10. As it is now, my tenative plans are get up at 8-8:30ish. Class 10-12. Home by 1 (transit takes some time ya know.) then lunch myself. Study from 3-6 or 3-7 depending on day. If I study 3-4 hours every day (including Saturdays, but excluding Sundays) that should be enough.. right? Glad I got into this habit over the summer.

It's been very good to see all the XA people back in town. This year I have been working on learning and remebering names. I have a few theories as to why this is a good thing. But the main one is if I am to be working in the public and working with patients, I'd like to remember thier names because then they could see that I really care. How idealist I sound. But I feel as if I am doing pretty well, at least with some of the new faces at the bbq and whatnot.

Living arrangements are doing well too. Joker has made himself at home, and apparently does not want to leave the trailer. I opened the door to let him out this morning and he ran and hid under the bed. Perhaps he smelled all the cats hanging around outside and decided he didn't want to mess with them. Heather and I don't see each other too much. Our schedules don't coincide too much. But I have gotten her (and Jacob) addicted to Katamari. Muahahahaha!

Jon Mark and I are going to get lunch tomorrow. I've been thinking of getting together with him for the past two weeks and I finally got around to calling. I'm excited to get to sit down and talk with him.

I need a new ink cartridge for my printer. Dang drugs and diseases took all my ink.

2005-08-08T21:39:00.000-05:00

I want a Wendy's Frosty.

2005-08-05T12:03:00.000-05:00

But between them and the foot of the sky there was something so white on the green grass that even with their eagless' eyes they could hardly look at it. They came on and saw it was a Lamb.
"Come and have breakfast," said the Lamb in its sweet milky voice.
Then they noticed for the first time that there was a fire lit on the grass and fish roasting on it. They sat down and ate the fish, hungry now for the first time in many days. And it was the most delicious food they had ever tasted.
"Please Lamb," said Lucy, "Is this the way to Aslan's country?"
"Not for you," said the Lamb. "For you the door into Aslan's country is from your own world."
"What!" said Edmund. "Is there a way into Aslan's country from our world too?"
"There is a way into my country from all the worlds," said the Lamb; but as he spoke, his snowy white flushed into tawny gold and his size changed and he was Aslan himself, towering above them and scattering light from his mane.
"Oh Aslan," said Lucy. "Will you tell us how to get into your country from our world?"
"I shall be telling you all the time," said Aslan. "But I will not tell you how long or short the way will be; only that it lies across a river. But do not fear that, for I am teh great Bridge Builder. And now come; I will open the door in the sky and send you to your own land."
"Please, Aslan," said Lucy. "Before we go, will you tell us when we can come back to Narnia again? Please. And oh, do, do, do make it soon."
"Dearest," said Aslan very gently, "you and your brother will never come back to Narnia."
"Oh Aslan!!" said Edmund and Lucy both together in despairing voices.
"You are too old, children," said Aslan, "and you must begin to come close to your own world now."
"It isn't Narnia, you know," sobbed Lucy, "It's you. We shan't meet you there. And how can we live, never meeting you?"
"But you shall meet me, dear one," said Aslan.
"Are-are you there too, Sir?" said Edmund.
"I am," said Aslan. "But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there."
"And is Eustace never to come back here either?" said Lucy.
"Child," said Aslan, "do you really need to know that? Come, I am opening the door in the sky."

-- The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, C.S. Lewis.

Becca's note: If that ain't some symbolism, I don't know what is!!

2005-08-01T18:53:00.000-05:00

"I do indeed, Sir," said Caspian. "I was wishing that I came of a more honourable lineage."
"You come of the Lord Adam and the Lady Eve," said Aslan. "And that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor on earth. Be content."

--Prince Caspian, C.S. Lewis

2005-08-01T18:07:00.000-05:00

"Welcome, child," he said.
"Aslan," said Lucy, "you're bigger."
"That is because you are older, little one," answered he.
"Not because you are?"
"I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger."

-- Prince Caspian, C.S. Lewis.

2005-07-31T01:01:00.000-05:00

Lucy shuddered and nodded. WHen they had sat down she said: "Such a horrible idea has come into my head, Su."
"What's that?"
"Wouldn't it be dreadful if some day, in our own world, at home, men started going wild inside, like the animals here, and still looked like men, so that you'd never know which were which?"
"We've got enough to bother about here and now in Narnia," said the practical Susan, "without imagining things like that."

-- Prince Caspian, C.S.Lewis

2005-07-29T03:56:00.000-05:00

Insomnia sucks. If I hadn't been laying in bed for the last 5 hours, I don't suppose it would be so bad.
::Sigh::

2005-07-28T15:33:00.000-05:00

I love the show The Undetectables!! Honestly, I love watching this show and seeing all the mold, bacteria and other such disgusting things in peoples homes. I'd love to be the scientist on that show. And I've learned alot from watching it as well. It just makes me happy to watch it. My favorite is when they find mummified rats in the walls or under the floors. But that also means that unfortunately I've been watching TV again. I had broken myself of the habit.

On a side note, I've discovered my average in physics and I have an 86. Rock on! I could make 50's on the next test and the final and still have a 75 in the class. Whoo hoo! Especially since the next test is the easiest.

I've been rereading The Chronicles of Narnia. Well, I've actually only read thru A Horse and His Boy. So, I'm rereading some and reading the rest. It's amazing to me the amount of symbolism in those novels. I know so much more now (or I'm a more mature Christian so I see things better) than I did the first time I read them. I also find it's a good activity for my mind. I'll read a section and wonder what C.S. Lewis wanted me to get out of it. It's actually been a wonderful two weeks, besides being lonely. Heather is moving in today as well! Huzzah! Just 4 more days of physics and I never have to do it again. Yaaay!

2005-07-25T14:47:00.000-05:00

I am 21 years old.
I have a B in physics.
I miss my boyfriend.
My back hurts.
I can find any song if I set my mind to it.
Strawberry-bannana is good.
Studying is tiresome.
Why didn't I start working HW problems with Chris from the beginning?
Step out and speak to the people who you think are cool, they usually are.
Cambridge = good study and good coffee and fun employees.
I still miss my boyfriend.
A 'lil kindness goes a long way, sometimes forced kindness is a necessary.
It is fun to bunk bad facts.
I do find random websites, mayhaps I spend too much time on the internet? Yes.
My back hurts still.
I like candles, and I like fire.
Fire is pretty when burning.
Mike doesn't let me play with fire.
I'm not really irresponsible with fire, it just looks like it.
I downloaded music from the Black-eyed Peas... wha?
I washed my hair, but I didn't blow dry/style it... It still looks good!
I have a semi-Mike scented candle. At least it smells like his cologne.
Ross is an interesting store.
I made a 62 on my physics test, but scored a perfect on one section?
I miss my boyfriend.
I need to go clothes shopping.
I kinda like the Black-eyed Peas... What?!
Do I really want a large collection of music on my laptop?
I like music.
I like my boyfriend.. I love my boyfriend.. I miss my boyfriend...
Hair brushes feel good sometimes.

This stream of conciousness was brought to you by Rebecca, the letter I and procrastination from physics.

2005-07-13T23:40:00.000-05:00

And the battle of the bugs rages on...

I hate sugar ants. And I noticed that since I'd gotten back there seemed to be alot in my kitchen, but I figured that had to do with me being gone and what not... Right as Jason got here tonight I saw them.. a long trail.. going in my cabinet to the box of Nilla Wafers. ARGH!!! So with many and much vengful sprayings they died.

Only to find them going in my pantry circling my peanut butter!! After more vengeful sprayings, I've given up for the night. I cannot wait for my dad to get down here and spray pesticides!

They make me feel so dirty, like i haven't cleaned. Which saddens me. They were coming in thru the oven vent, there's naught I can do about that. Heck, there's lots of lil crevices and cracks in this trailer they come in thru. I will not worry about it... but my skin keeps crawling.

Argh! And physics isn't so nice either, I'm getting quite tired of it in fact. Only 2 more weeks.
I am feeling overwhelmed.. Ha, think, if I feel this way now...

2005-07-01T00:26:00.000-05:00

Late nights and Physics HW.
I hates hates hates Physics!

I know I'll make it thru this class fine, but its so annoying right now. I'm going home this weekend. Huzzah for July 4th! When I come back I will have a CPR class. Why'd I let my CPR lapse? It woulda been easier had I kept it up. Ah well, I shan't complain!

Lately I've been in this awful state of Lethargy. My trailer isn't dirty. There are no dirty dishes, and I vaccumed the floor and swept.. but it's cluttered and I have no desire to clean it up. Here is a run down of my days. Wake up(9ish-10ish), Go to class(11:30-1ishMWF or 12ish-3ish TT), Go to study (3ish-7ish), then Bible study on Tue and Thur and Fri when I'm in Auburn.

It both does and doesn't sound busy... I guess that's why I haven't gotten up with anyone like I was planning on doing this summer. I always say, "Next week'll be different. I'll call So-and-so..." or "I'll cook for some people!"

It hasnt' happened yet.. and I'm not holding my breath.

Did I mention that I hate physics?

2005-06-28T11:15:00.000-05:00

Have you ever just had the urge to blog, but haven't? Time constraints, blogger not loading, or just plain nothing to talk about...

So, Liz's wedding. I almost missed it! I told Mike I'd probably be late to my own wedding, to which he didn't disagree. Heh. He, however, shared a part in making us late. Though it was 95% my fault. He gets his portion too. When I'm with him, life seems to slow down, to almost yell out at me to enjoy a slower pace. That and the Ms. Pac Man stand up arcade box in his basement. Though that wasn't what made us late, it was just my desire to lay there with him and not get up. So Liz's wedding, what I saw of it, was beautiful. Of course about the only thing I saw was the kiss. But hey, that's the most important part. Note to self: Copy Liz's idea of the tubs of Jones's Soda. The only thing I even ate at the reception was some of the cake. But that's all you have to eat right? It was just a beautiful day.

And Cody Mc invited us all out to his house that evening. Mike and I were supposed to go see Lords of Dogtown, but I'm just a bad girlfriend. Let me 'splain: I hate crowded movie theatres. Opening night is crowded. Therefore I didn't want to go opening night. And it didn't stay much past, so it was gone when we were going to go see it. I felt like a dog in a dress.

It was both heartwarming and slightly disconcerting to see all my friends from highschool at Cody's. People change, but you sometimes don't realize it til you actually see it. Trevor was smashingly hilarious when drunk. Tyrell was loud and belligerant and slightly annoying. Ta-Lee was sophisticated, but I think part of that was that he wasn't as set out to drink as Trev. Ta knew he had to drive later. Which brings me to the heartwarming part. The fact that my friends are not idiots. They were still looking out for friends of old. No one was gonna let Trev do anything too stupid. And watching Ta-Lee patiently explain to a soused Tyrell how they were gonna drive his car for him and etc, made me glad inside. These are the men that my friends are becoming. They are responsible. I told Ta that I appreciated him, but I don't think he understood.. and perhaps he never will, but that matters not as long as he knows I appreciate him and the person he has turned out to be. Now to find him some cute single auburn chickies when he comes to visit. ^_^

Why can't I sleep in Auburn? that is a whole nother spill. I went to bed last night at 9:30 pm. I ended up getting back up around 12, because I couldn't sleep. I was just laying there, awake. And I was tired. How very annoying this is becoming. It's not that I feel uncomfortable in my trailer. Far from it, or maybe not so far from it... I am very very consious of being alone. To the point where I think this may be causing me to stay awake. Benadryl doesn't work. When my dad was here last weekend and this weekend. I didn't seem to have as much a problem going to sleep. Or with Mike here when he comes to visit. Hmm, how to combat this is the problem. I have no idea! Convince Heather to pay rent on two places.. Yeah right. It's just one more month, I can deal... right?

2005-06-19T13:37:00.000-05:00

I went to the Methodist church this morning. I enjoyed the lesson, out of Leviticus. About the Tresspass offering.

My dad is in AU this weekend. Yay! It's nice just having someone else in the trailer. I know the main reason he came down was so he could watch the race and the bball game tonight and it not be as far to Atlanta. And he came to see me too. ^_^

I am excited about The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe being made into a movie. I've watched a few trailers and to be honest it looks beautiful. I'm going to reread it, and actually finish the series this time.

Happy Father's Day!

2005-06-15T22:52:00.000-05:00

I have a great boyfriend, even if he gets angry, and doesn't think before he speaks.

He still had to call back.

::gooshy grin::

2005-06-15T19:42:00.000-05:00

It's been a nice quiet week. No complaints... or at least nothing from the norm. Physics is still a butt.

You know sometimes I think I like my hair long. I'd like to keep it this, and longer.. but then I see Sage, whose hair is mega long and I think of the headache that would give me. Literally. Do you understand how heavy my hair is? But it's nice.

I got my Vitamin D for today. An hour in the sunshine, it does wonders for making you feel kinda rested. Or maybe that's because I didnt open a physics book yet today? And the fact that I kinda followed the notes in class and wasn't lost. Woot!

I miss my home church on Wed nights. And Auburn is extremely quiet in the summer. Not that it's a bad thing, but I got used to the loud and constant stream of the school year. It's funny now to actually get to go to a resturant and sit down. Wait, I've not been to a resturant yet! Or walmart for that matter. Wow. How boring I am.

But water volleyball is fun! ^_^ Hmm, mind dump complete.

2005-06-11T12:05:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was nice, excluding my physics test. I took my deposit money to Walker building, made sure I got a receipt. Went home and sat for a lil while, very akin to a lump on a log. Then I went to Cambridge and studied. Jon Mark met up with me there and we went to the Nicholson's for some Bible study and Chicken soup! We kinda headed out in the middle of prayer and went to Calla Maria's house to watch Before the Sunrise. So I told Calla Maria I'd blog about Before the Sunrise...

As I was sitting watching it, it gave me plenty of time to think. Just recently a friend called me a realist. He said that was why he enjoyed hanging out with me. I just laughed at the comment and didn't pause to think about it.

This movie made me uncomfortable to a degree. It was unrealistic. I wouldn't just get off a train with a stranger I had only known for maybe 30-40 min. I would not kiss someone I had only known for a day. I would not sleep with someone I had only known for a day. Yes the movie was a Romantic movie, but not only in the means of boy meets girl and falls in love, but also in the sense of Carpe Diem. They were seizing the moment and the day.
I made random comments and jokes thru-out the movie because it made me uncomfortable.

And then I began to think about it, I want to be a romantic. Examine the Christian faith; it's all about being Romantic. We have to live for today and not be concerned with tomorrow or anything, because God will take care of us. We need to reach out to our friends now, because they may not have a tomorrow. Believe by faith.

I want to be a romantic, and I used to be one. I think that Mike brings some of that back to me. I lost all my romantic notions after my first relationship. And being with Mike has brought some of them back. Just another of the many reasons I love him. The movie made me miss him, and that is probably the truest reason as to why the movie made me uncomfortable. I think I may have seen just a smidgeon of our relationship on the screen. Definately not to the extent that was portrayed in the movie, but I didn't want to meet him... and something made me take a chance.

I shared my cape, and he shared his hoodie pocket, and we didn't know each other. We held hands to keep warm, or rather I did. And from that letting down of a barrier, a 3 year (almost 4 now...) relationship has blossomed. And as I was telling Jon Mark, there is a lot of faith in this relationship. Faith and trust. Being 4 hours apart is difficult. But it is somewhat fulfilling as well. Because when I come back home, I know that he hasn't seen anyone and he's waited on me to come home. That makes me feel kinda special; he thinks I'm worth waiting on.

And that's how God is too, he waits on us to come to Him, but when we turn He scoops us up and holds us close.

Wow, stream of conciousness, how'd I get off on all this? Ah well.. so there are my views on the movie, and now i have to see the second one. ^_^

2005-06-11T12:03:00.000-05:00

Your Birthdate: April 23

With a birthday on the 23rd of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.

You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas.

You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.

You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.

Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.

A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine.

You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

Very sociable, you make friends easily and you are an excellent traveling companion.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-06-08T22:02:00.000-05:00

I GOT ACCEPTED TO PHARMACY SCHOOL!

2005-06-06T23:18:00.000-05:00

So if you hadn't read it on Liz's and Dee's blogs: This weekend was such a blast!

Friday night, my mom had a b-day dinner for herself so me and Mike headed out the door with semi-plans to go see Lords of Dogtown. Denise and Hodge called and we ended up going to the dollar-fifty theatre to see Hitch. Much better if you ask me. I'm a big fan of the Dollar-fifty theatre. Don't get me wrong, I wanna see Lords of Dogtown.. but I didn't want to fight the crowds. So when I come back home for Liz's wedding on the 25th we'll go then. After the movie we went to Krispy Kreme. Ahh, blissful. Only.. it was very very late when we got home.

So the next day is Sat, and Rob (Mike's friend) is having an engagement party and our get together with Liz is also on Sat night. I'm fidgity and excited. So I made another Penis cake. Huzzah for Penis cakes! So we sat at Ruby Tues for awhile. I almost felt bad for the other families who had come to eat dinner because we were loud and giggly like... Middle school kids. Heh, the memories that were all brought up. And to be sitting in Liz's basement again. Though it was smaller than I remembered... And besides, anytime I can talk about Mike I'm happy.

I'm just glad to see everyone is happy. I know I'm much happier. It would be nice if I were closer to home. Could we just pick Auburn up and throw it down on top of Moulton? Nothin happens in Moulton. It would be alright.. wouldn't it? and it'd be an hour closer to home for me.

Physics. Blech. Ta-Lee I owe you a drink.. or two! Sigh, it's not nice. Physics I mean. Ta-Lee is. Lol. There's a reason he's my hero!

I am in love with Mike. Telling "our story" this weekend to the girls, just reminded me how special he is to me. And oddly enough, he was talking about how everyone appears to be getting engaged or married and is flaunting it in his face. Rob, Liz, even the girl at his church. He then tried to play down what he'd said, but he'd already said it. I didn't know he felt that way about it. Surprised me a lil bit. But then he profusely reminded me that that was fine and he'd wait for me. Heh, I wasn't worried about it.

School. I'd like a break.

2005-05-31T22:55:00.000-05:00

...and I am sad, but not for the reason you might expect...

2005-05-31T10:36:00.000-05:00

Geez Trill! Take a Chill Pill!
Hee hee, that all rhymed. And now, it's update Time! (Call the jeweler, I just made another gem!)

So the reason I haven't updated is because I had no internet in my trailer. It was both good and bad. Kinda like turning off the cell phone for a week by choice. So after I finished moving in on Fri and unpacking everything I was done. So me and Mike proceeded to be lazy. We watched all of Heather's movies that we hadn't seen. Both Kill Bill's (which I had seen, but he hadn't), Seven, Butterfly Effect, and High Fidelity. We cooked on Sat night, and other than that we did nothing. I throughly enjoyed the weekend. Later I realized that I missed a bunch of phone calls. Oops, sorry Jon Mark, and Trillium, and Sage. heh.

It's raining, and I do love the sound of rain on my tin roof. Cause this trailer most def has a tin roof. It was nice to just lay in bed and let the rain lull me to almost-sleep. Then the cable guy called. Big surprise he couldn't fin my trailer. No one can find this trailer... and I think I like it like that. But once you've found it, it's not hard to find again, and that's the important thing.

Ok, enough of an update, I want to lay in my bed and listen to rain.

What Kind of Geek are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your IQ is	quite high
You are a	gamer geek
Your strength is	you never need to sleep
Your weakness is	electrons
You think normal people are	aliens
Normal people think that you are	disturbed

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