...and I am sad, but not for the reason you might expect...

Geez Trill! Take a Chill Pill!
Hee hee, that all rhymed. And now, it's update Time! (Call the jeweler, I just made another gem!)

So the reason I haven't updated is because I had no internet in my trailer. It was both good and bad. Kinda like turning off the cell phone for a week by choice. So after I finished moving in on Fri and unpacking everything I was done. So me and Mike proceeded to be lazy. We watched all of Heather's movies that we hadn't seen. Both Kill Bill's (which I had seen, but he hadn't), Seven, Butterfly Effect, and High Fidelity. We cooked on Sat night, and other than that we did nothing. I throughly enjoyed the weekend. Later I realized that I missed a bunch of phone calls. Oops, sorry Jon Mark, and Trillium, and Sage. heh.

It's raining, and I do love the sound of rain on my tin roof. Cause this trailer most def has a tin roof. It was nice to just lay in bed and let the rain lull me to almost-sleep. Then the cable guy called. Big surprise he couldn't fin my trailer. No one can find this trailer... and I think I like it like that. But once you've found it, it's not hard to find again, and that's the important thing.

Ok, enough of an update, I want to lay in my bed and listen to rain.

Back in Auburn.. Sigh.

Back home again! Yay!

Henceforth is my apology to all who have tried to call me since I've come home. I have not carried my cell phone around with me. It's been left here at the house and therefore I have missed all 20-something calls. I would like to say I feel bad.. but I don't. It's vacation time for me. I need a respite from it. Of course that means I've missed G-parent phone calls as well. Oops... hehe. But that's ok cause I've called them and visited. Yay for G-parents!

Let's see.. what to report. I picked out colors for my trailer. Nuetral and earth tones mainly. Blue for the kitchen but it's like an ocean tone blue. Mother approved. I think she was just excited that I showed enough initiative and intrest to go pick something out. I called carpet people and set up an appointment to have the carpet laid. Mike wants a 68 chevy van. Picture the mystery machine.. in solid white. I love him but sometimes he makes no sense. He's wanted a van for so long. And it is his money, and he has good intentions for it as well. It will allow him to cart around musical stuff for his band without fear of it getting wet. It will also give him a hobby on the weekends when I'm not home and he's bored. (Since he leaves his drums elsewhere...) Plus! It will help me move. Ha!

Ok I'm done.

Everyone's blogs are all saying good bye.

It made me sad, which is not too terribly difficult to do this week. Most of them were the end-of-the-school-year-moving-on-to-summer blogs. But Manda's was a goodbye-to-my-mother blog. Yeah I cried.

And I sucked it up and called Muntifering to beg for a second chance... and he wasn't home. Me and Trill had a last day pancake breakfast. It's gonna be wierd without her here in Auburn. What shall I do this summer?

Im just ready to go home. And regardless I shall have to start to think of something I can do, because I have no faith in pharmacy school anymore. If I get in, it's all God.

2 more finals, and i think they're pointless to take.
Who was I kidding? I can't make it in pharm school.

Wow.

I have the bestest best friend ever.

In case you can't tell by the blogs, I've been on somewhat of an emotional roller coaster for the past semester. I feel so emotionally drained, of everything. Talking with Ta, I kinda semi-determined that it might be senioritis or some such thing. Didn't make me feel better, but at least it made some sense. Then Nisee signs on AIM, and ims me immediately, and just as immediately knows im unhappy. We chat for all of 3 min or so and then my internet dies.

So, she calls me. At 12:45 am. And we talk. I cry a little. We talk alot. I never talk on the phone! I needed it I suppose. A 45 minute phone conversation that lifted my spirits some. I won't say I'm back to 100%, but she did envoke alot of feelings so I'm not quite so emotionally evoid after all.

Odd, where would I be without my two friends who aren't here? Sometimes I sit back and wonder when did Ta become my confidant? I don't regret my choice, and I greatly appreciate the man he's growin up to be. Wierd. Me and Denise laughed about that tonight as well. She called Devin the other day and she told me that he's happy. She said she can't even remember him ever being happy. Yeah, we may not fully agree with thier choice of drinks, but they're much happier than they were in Muscle Shoals. And really that's all i want for my friends.

And Denise is happier in Starkville than Muscle Shoals. So, when will i become happier in Auburn?

Today i tried out a new church with Jorge and Laura.

He was talking about cats, and it made me think a lil bit. Well, Jorge was nudging me because I am the cat. Hah.
Anyways, talking about Cats will always land on their feet, and it made me think a lil bit.

Ok, so I'm a cat. Not really, but work with me here a lil bit.. I should be a cat. And when I get discouraged or feel like life is tossing me around. I should land on my feet.

So I'mma gonna. ^_^