The clinic was closed.

And I still feel awful.

So, in case you haven't already heard me whine, my vertigo is acting up. So, just so you know what it is I cut a small blurb about vertigo to show you what it is.

The term vertigo refers to the sensation of spinning or whirling that occurs as a result of a disturbance in balance (equilibrium). It also may be used to describe feelings of dizziness, lightheadedness, faintness, and unsteadiness. The sensation of movement is called subjective vertigo and the perception of movement in surrounding objects is called objective vertigo.

Vertigo usually occurs as a result of a disorder in the vestibular system (i.e., structures of the inner ear, the vestibular nerve, brainstem, and cerebellum). The vestibular system is responsible for integrating sensory stimuli and movement and for keeping objects in visual focus as the body moves.

Symptoms:

• Fatigue and reduced stamina
• Headache
• Heart palpitations (rapid fluttering of the heart)
• Imbalance
• Inability to concentrate
• Increased risk for motion sickness
• Muscle ache (especially of the neck and back)
• Nausea and vomiting
• Reduced cognitive function (i.e., thinking and memory)
• Sensitivity to bright lights and noise
• Sweating
• Blurred Vision
  

All the above was ganked from www.neurologychannel.com.

... I was gonna write (and whine,) a whole lot more, but I decided that I'm just going to go ahead and go to the clinic. Later.

Random observations:
The pipe organ at Wesley has a rear-view mirror.
Cat purring is very theraputic.
Sometimes, I just don't belong.
My friends I graduated with are still geeks.
Rolling up a ball of stuff can be theraputic.
I don't like raisins.

Apparently I gleaned more Organic Chemistry than I realized. Since the first 2-3 weeks of Drugs and Diseases is a review of Organic Chemistry I'm getting to review that which I thought I'd never have to see again.

I went swing dancin last night, and wowsers. I did have fun. Trill said I looked natural out there. I got tha flow. And others told me I did well. Meh. That's somewhat hard for me to believe.

Today was good. I spent lunch with Jon Mark. Nice, unstressful, normalacy. He even got me into Wal-mart which I have been avoiding. I do better in Wal-mart when I have someone to meander with. Then Trillby called and I've been studying at Cambridge with her since about 3ish. Hence my excitement over actually remembering this crap. With about 4 highlighters, 3 pens, 2 people, 1 big notebook. Ha! Ok sorry, just felt like counting down. I've made it thru about 4 chapters now and I'll probably be here another 45 min then home for some type of supper (leftover calzone ^_^) and katamari and sleep. Where to go to church in the morning? I havent even thought about that.. I am going to Wesley with Trill tomorrow night. Maybe I'll tag along with Heather and Jacob. We'll just have to see...

I've been spammed. It's interesting that they think such things will actually work.

Ah, what to say. It's been an interesting week. I am already tired of dressing professionally. But I do love my sched. It's nice to know I'll be thru with classes by 12 every day (except Wed.) and also that I don't have to be on campus until 10. As it is now, my tenative plans are get up at 8-8:30ish. Class 10-12. Home by 1 (transit takes some time ya know.) then lunch myself. Study from 3-6 or 3-7 depending on day. If I study 3-4 hours every day (including Saturdays, but excluding Sundays) that should be enough.. right? Glad I got into this habit over the summer.

It's been very good to see all the XA people back in town. This year I have been working on learning and remebering names. I have a few theories as to why this is a good thing. But the main one is if I am to be working in the public and working with patients, I'd like to remember thier names because then they could see that I really care. How idealist I sound. But I feel as if I am doing pretty well, at least with some of the new faces at the bbq and whatnot.

Living arrangements are doing well too. Joker has made himself at home, and apparently does not want to leave the trailer. I opened the door to let him out this morning and he ran and hid under the bed. Perhaps he smelled all the cats hanging around outside and decided he didn't want to mess with them. Heather and I don't see each other too much. Our schedules don't coincide too much. But I have gotten her (and Jacob) addicted to Katamari. Muahahahaha!

Jon Mark and I are going to get lunch tomorrow. I've been thinking of getting together with him for the past two weeks and I finally got around to calling. I'm excited to get to sit down and talk with him.

I need a new ink cartridge for my printer. Dang drugs and diseases took all my ink.

I want a Wendy's Frosty.

But between them and the foot of the sky there was something so white on the green grass that even with their eagless' eyes they could hardly look at it. They came on and saw it was a Lamb.
"Come and have breakfast," said the Lamb in its sweet milky voice.
Then they noticed for the first time that there was a fire lit on the grass and fish roasting on it. They sat down and ate the fish, hungry now for the first time in many days. And it was the most delicious food they had ever tasted.
"Please Lamb," said Lucy, "Is this the way to Aslan's country?"
"Not for you," said the Lamb. "For you the door into Aslan's country is from your own world."
"What!" said Edmund. "Is there a way into Aslan's country from our world too?"
"There is a way into my country from all the worlds," said the Lamb; but as he spoke, his snowy white flushed into tawny gold and his size changed and he was Aslan himself, towering above them and scattering light from his mane.
"Oh Aslan," said Lucy. "Will you tell us how to get into your country from our world?"
"I shall be telling you all the time," said Aslan. "But I will not tell you how long or short the way will be; only that it lies across a river. But do not fear that, for I am teh great Bridge Builder. And now come; I will open the door in the sky and send you to your own land."
"Please, Aslan," said Lucy. "Before we go, will you tell us when we can come back to Narnia again? Please. And oh, do, do, do make it soon."
"Dearest," said Aslan very gently, "you and your brother will never come back to Narnia."
"Oh Aslan!!" said Edmund and Lucy both together in despairing voices.
"You are too old, children," said Aslan, "and you must begin to come close to your own world now."
"It isn't Narnia, you know," sobbed Lucy, "It's you. We shan't meet you there. And how can we live, never meeting you?"
"But you shall meet me, dear one," said Aslan.
"Are-are you there too, Sir?" said Edmund.
"I am," said Aslan. "But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there."
"And is Eustace never to come back here either?" said Lucy.
"Child," said Aslan, "do you really need to know that? Come, I am opening the door in the sky."

-- The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, C.S. Lewis.

Becca's note: If that ain't some symbolism, I don't know what is!!

"I do indeed, Sir," said Caspian. "I was wishing that I came of a more honourable lineage."
"You come of the Lord Adam and the Lady Eve," said Aslan. "And that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor on earth. Be content."

--Prince Caspian, C.S. Lewis

"Welcome, child," he said.
"Aslan," said Lucy, "you're bigger."
"That is because you are older, little one," answered he.
"Not because you are?"
"I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger."

-- Prince Caspian, C.S. Lewis.