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Saturday, October 30, 2004

Last night... Wow. Awesome, when God shows up, he shows up!

Wednesday, October 27, 2004



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But one piece of news, I made a 99 on my organic chem 2 test... Yay!!

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Well that time of year has come and gone again. The Rennaisance Faire. Wow, and that's about all Ihave to say. It's special to me for a number of reasons. I get to dress up in period costume and wander around and not stand out. There are always spiffy people there who like to talk about the Rennaisance which is always interesting to learn about... The music, the food.. Mike in thigh high black leather boots.. And speaking of Mike, it's the fact that we've now been dating for 3 years. Wow. Who'da thunk it? I sure wouldn't have.

Maybe it was the fact that I didn't want to meet him in the first place, but it amazes me daily the love he has brought into my life. He is just the most perfect sweetest man ever. Yes, he is. I love him. And that in itself is amazing. Real love is a trip. This person, you want to be with them. All of the time. And the more you are with them, the more you want to be with them, to the extent that it feels like it will never be enough. Even the knowledge that you will spend your whole lifes together, it's not enough. We are four hours apart, but that is only physically. Our hearts, and our souls abide in a higher plane of consiousness. They are together, even though we are apart. People ask why are we still together? aren't long distance relationships hard? To which i reply -- that's crap.

Relationships require work and commitment, most of which the people intoday's times do not even try to do. I wake up everymorning with Mike on my mind. Every morning I say, "I love this man; we are going to last." No one else even catches my eye. Sure I hang out with guys, in fact taht's just about the only people i hang out with.. but, they're nothing more than buddies. I think of them more like I do my brother than any sort of Romantic interest. Sure, I miss Mike. I miss him all the time. Most nights there is nothing I want more than just to feel his arms around me. That's the absolute worst part.. I miss his kisses, and I miss his arms. Just the way he holds me let's me know i matter to him.. the way he holds me tells me that he will protect me.

Geez, sorry guys. Didn't mean to get all mushy strange on you.. I'll just go back to picturing Mike in his black leather boots again.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Ok so tonight at XA we were talking about God's love. Which is great! Dee's post fits in kinda nicely... lol.
He discussed the 5 love languages.. Words of Affirmation, Acts of Service, Physical, Quality time, and of course Gifts... which in my opinion can fall under acts of service but ah well.

So which is my "language"? I'm really not sure.. I do just about all of them except gifts really. I love to give gifts, but not to recieve them. Wow, God's love is everywhere.. and it has been all week for me. Awesome.

ANd with that I love you guys too! Peace, joy and Chinese food!

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

"Which sidearm is right for me???"
For You, For Now, We recommend:

Saturday Night Special
- Single, Double action
- 32.6 oz
- 3.6" Barrel
This snazzy black barrel is a late 90's take on that stylish lil' piece that took down Jim Bradey in '81!

Hmm, I don't know what to think.. but I'm guessing scared is the most accurate at the moment. But! I took my organic test today and I think I rocked the house with it. So Yay!!!

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Well i woke up early this morning so I could register for classes. I got every one I need. ^_^

My sched is not for those who are not morning people. I'm not a morning person but I can cope. MWF i have classes from 7-9 then again from 11-1. Genetics starts at 7, that's before the Transit even runs!! Note to self, ask Heather is she wants her parking decal, if not I'll buy it from her for 5 bucks. Since it only costs 5$ a semester...

I'm actually a little bit excited about next semester's classes. I think I'll have fun. Genetics, Immuniology, A&P2, and Biochem. There are two that I am NOT looking foward to, and two that I am. We'll just see how it all goes down next semester. Org Test tomorrow, I better get back to studying.

Monday, October 18, 2004

Mike and Becca
  • Trying to conceive one evil girl.
  • Enjoy opportunities to actually see each other as it mightn't lead to pregnancy
  • Only speak in song.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy

So it's monday all over again... I feel that i actually did pretty good on my microtest today fortunately. Now I just have a lit paper to type/write and organic test to study for on wed. Maybe i CAN do this.. we'll see. I already miss Mike. It happens I suppose..

So some friends of mine already have Halo 2. I wanna play!!! But stupid school work is preventing me from any and all fun. Blargh.. Oh well. I do get to sleep late tomorrow.. wait NO I dont.. i have to wake up to register for classes. Fun fun. Anyways, I suppose I'm done. Have a wonderful week everyone else, cause mine sure won't be.

Friday, October 15, 2004

I'm going home!! Yay! I slept ok last night so that's another good thing.

I missed my transit this morning, that's why i'm in here typing this. Stupid transit. There'll be another in 10 min but it's so cold outside that I'm not standing out there.

I'm going home!! Yay!

Thursday, October 14, 2004

It has just been a baaaad week. Yesterday was awful, and while today isn't worse... it isn't much better either. I lost my cell phone AGAIN. *sigh* I hope some nice person found it and returned it to lost and found or is dilligently searching me out. I want to go home sooo much. I'm beginning to realize that this college life is not for me. Not that it's bad or anything... I just no longer have the desire to do pharmacy. I don't think I can make it. So therefore I don't want to be wasting my life/time here on something I won't get to do.

... that's a scary thought for me.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

I love sleep. Always have. Why doesn't sleep love me? It's not that sleep doesn't love me, it's simply that I can no longer fall asleep easily. It has a whole heck of a lot with being here in Auburn. On the weekends when I go home I sleep wonderfully. I fall asleep and stay asleep.

I'm a cracker eating son of a gun... No really. I can sit down with a pack of crackers and demolish it in almost no time flat. It happens. I sometimes fear i do not eat nutritionally. Sigh, That's bad, no? But I have neither the time nor the inclination to eat right. If someone will buy and fix me veggies I'll eat them, but veggies are expensive. Ramen is not. So Ramen wins the match, and i lose out on yet another nutritional meal.

On a happier note... I love hot showers and am going to take one right now.
Ok, so I thought crying was supposed to make you sleepy.. yet here I am at 1 in the morning and I can't sleep.

I think I came close to having a panic attack tonight; or at least the closest I've ever come. I was lying in my bed, thinking about all the crap that's going on and suddenly I couldn't breathe. Talk about a scary experience. I've never had that happen before. So i had to calm myself down, Lord only knows how I did. And so now after crying for an hour I just want to go to sleep, but I can't. So now I'm going to sit in front of a computer screen which will wake me up even more. Sigh, no wonder i can't understand Organic chemistry. If I'm too stupid to go to bed, I don't deserve to do well in that class.

So I've been rethinking my major, as all college students do. Pharmacy. How I would love to actually do it. But can I handle the class work/load and can I handle 5 more years here in Auburn (away from Mike and family)? And has my advisor truely screwed me over? Methinks probably, but i suppose I'll find out tomorrow. Is it truely worth it?

... I just want Mike ...

Monday, October 11, 2004

It's Monday night, do you know where your children are? As I do not have kids I can answer this question with a resounding affirmative.

Mondays are my long days. On campus until 5 o'clock then onwards to the chrisis center until 10 p.m. I do always enjoy microbiology. So tomorrow they are having some kind scavenger hunt where the grand prize is 1000 dollars. WooT! One can always try and hope.

Anna let me borrow her Magic Knight Rayearth Manga series. I'm enjoying it. My dad cracks me up when he tries to talk on the instant messanger. He has very poor skills at it. Well, small nothings today. Ciao!

Sunday, October 10, 2004

I'm back. And I don't want to be... Unfortunately, one has little to no say in the matter. But the ride back wasn't bad at all. And Anna drove from Childersburg onwards. I hate leaving home, because I hate leaving Mike. Does it ever get easier? Someone please lie to me and tell me it does... not that it would help I suppose.

So a couple of nights ago i had this wonderful dream in which Mike gave me a ring. It was just like the fake one i wear, only a lil smaller (not much!) and on the top was this junky gold flaky paint. To which he exclaimed, "They told me it was the 'in' thing, but it'll flake off. You can scratch it off if you want." I was just so crappin happy to get the ring that I didn't care....
and then I woke up.

There is nothing as good as being wrapped up inside his armsm, snuggled down on the couch. I love the fact that we are now just comfortable together.

So I'm bored, and taking quizzes. I'm "Pretty Kinky" I scored higher than 49% of females that took the test. As far as cuddlablilty I am the "Heavenly Cloud." And my superhero is Batman.

And here is my results for overall personality:
The Sonnet
Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed? Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.
Your exact opposite:Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so. You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

And my results for the Perfect Girlfriend test:

The Perfect Girl Congratulations! You scored 83!
You understand that to be a perfect girlfriend, compromise is essential. You still like to go out once in a while and have fun, but you never "forget" that you have a boyfriend (nor would you do anything that you know would upset him). Even though you are in a relationship, you still have your individuality and care genuinely about your man. Congratulations, you are a rare breed!!!!!!

Heh, guess i should believe Mike when he says it. G'nite all, and God Bless!

Thursday, October 07, 2004

I guess I wasn't finished...

Dunno, feel the urge to continue to rant just a smidge.

Perhaps it's the poetry I'm supposed to be reading... Who would actually read this stuff on thier own without being forced to for an assignment? Poetry has never captured my interest. Not even Poe's poetry. Poe's short stories perhaps.. but not his poetry.

Not that I'm against iambic pentameter you understand. I like most lyrics, and lyrics are a type of poetry. (I just noticed that Poe is in Poetry..) Singing, how I miss it. I suppose that's mostly to all my fault. I could find a group to sing with if I so chose. Unfortunately I am a procrastinator. (I.e. I am working on this blog instead of my 1 page poetry journal.)

Bjork, that's a singer. Well, i wouldn't call her so much a singer, as an emotionalist. Ok, I'll try to explain. She sings, yes. But she does more than sing.. she makes you feel her voice. She sounds to me as if she doesn't care, that she is doing what she does because if she did not she would explode. I wish I felt that strongly about something. My strongest conviction is Christ. While i believe it, and i KNOW it to be true.. I feel i do not come across about it as much as I wish I did.. Hmm, more food for my own thought.

I'm feeling so apathetic or blase today. I just wish it was tomorrow.

Openings of a mad...

New day, new experiences. New blog!

So.. I'd been debating about trying these things out, and decided.. why not? I apologize to any and all of you who stumble across this small dusty corner of the web. I can almost guarentee it will be dusty, as I will probably be too busy to use it most of the time. Let's hope not.

Today was bad. I slept late.. or i turned off my alarm clock while sleeping. I hate it when I do that. Regardless I was 20 min late to org chem lab. Nooo good. But, i made it in time for briefing, all I missed was the quiz. It could have been worse, or so I keep telling myself.

Yesterday was so wonderful (except for getting my test back ; _ ; ) So why is today driving me bonkers? I just want to go home. And that's another thing.. who cares if I crappin go home? I guess I should feel loved, because everyone wants me to stay. Everyone except me. And Mike.. ^_^;;

To home i shall go! I just need a break from Auburn sometimes. I guess that's hard to understand. Regardless... life goes on. I think i shall eat some powdered donuts and take a nap.